You have a view of God that is incompatible with the God found in Scripture.
I can argue that the God of my experience is hate and wrath and you would have to take that account as valid because again it is from my personal subjective experience. He is the God of hate found in murder, revenge and rape.
Your god is based on your own subjective and relative reasoning.
I would like to continue this subject but firstmayI ask how you view "truth". Is it relative, as in what's true for you may not be what's true for me? Or is it absolute and exclusive?