Corrie, there still may be hope for you. As long as you have a breadth in your body, man, you have a chance so don't give up yet. I've got a little exercise I'd like you to try, it has helped some people and may do the same for you.
Go into a quiet area of you home and sit on a do-nut for about two hours to relieve some of the pressure on your brain. I'm sure after sitting all day on a flat surface it could use a break. After you've sat there for a couple of hours stand up, bend over and pull your head out of you rear end. Then take it and place it on that stump between your shoulders and I'm sure you will see a big difference in the way you think. Man you've got your head so far up your rear end that if you open your eyes you could see your teeth.