I can relate to the seuxal abuse. I am obese. I am 5' tall & weigh 280 pounds.
My obesity is a result of improper diet & self-hatred brought on by being emotionally neglected by people who claim to love me.
Be really honest with yourself......if you buy junk food or fast food meals daily, weekly or monthly look at that total dollar amount and compare that to buying real food.
I have recently started to take care of myself & I realize that it's up to me & only me...........the quality of my life is my decision.
Also, I never drank water till the last few years. I have PCOS, thryroid & adrenal problems as well. I know the struggle of trying to lose weight while having physical and emotional problems.