Another thought

I think this maybe(just a thought) might come from the fact that my current boyfriend can't bring me to cllmax from oral sex(the only way I can cllmax) because he just doesn't understand how to. I tried explaining and demonstrating(on his hand) what feels good but it's not working and he can only go at it for about 2 mintutes before I start losing feeling down there. I guess I was kind of thinking how easy it would be for another woman to bring me to, because she knows what feels good. I end up with extreme tension from my boyfriend getting me a little stirred up down there and it's almost painful because I have no way to release it. I don't touch myself because it just doesn't work and so ya I'm just confusing myself now. I'm thinking maybe this is why these being with another woman fantasies are coming into my head. I don't know just a thought...