Re: Feeling encouraged, should I be?? And a whole heap more questions.

I spoke too soon. My mood swings have been crazy. Yesterday I burst into tears because the dishwasher hadn't cleaned something. I'm ratty and irritable and frankly no fun to be around. This is taking over my life. I'm fed up with it. I've just had the most loaded BM yet - I'm at my bfs so no kit for photos but I think there was a 3 inch white / cream worm on the outside of my stool, or it was mucous, I don't know - I'm now away all weekend and in rebellion against all this have brought only my mebendazole with me. I feel so stupid. It's working and I'm gonna give them a little holiday. I'm sick of having such unpredictable bowels - nothing impacts me the way it should. Castor oil, nothing, activated h2, nothing, Senna, nothing. I don't want diarrhoea but I want them clearing out - I took 3 Senna night before last and have just passed some pellets and the worm thing I can't photograph. On the odd occasion I have had to dash recently it's always somewhere v difficult, not clean, and just downright unpleasant. I always clean the seat first and after with isopropyl alcohol to disinfect but really...... Why does it never get me when I'm near my own sodding toilet?? I need to be strong, I need to keep going. By God, what do I do this weekend? I have nothing. Gaaaaah.