Re: Mirena Removed Today 01.03.14

It has been a little over 3 months since having my Mirena removed. I can say that I am 95% better. I still have hip pain and believe that I have developed bursitis in my left hip due to the issues caused by the Mirena. Although I am physically better, I can't say I am psychologically or financially better. The repercussions of closing out my massage practice continue to haunt my life. I had a thriving and successful massage practice and now it is dust. After having both of my children I had to rebuild clientele and did so very easily. But, after this situation I find clients weary to see me again. I don't blame them. Its not like I quit because I had a baby. I quit because I was physically injured. Injury I could have avoided or quickly recovered from if I had been armed with knowledge that the Mirena causes RA-like issues throughout the body. Or, if my doctors were more knowledgeable, open-minded and supportive. I may be physically better, but the anger I feel and the loss is what lingers. I am trying hard to be positive and focus on the present, but some days I feel totally bummed. Especially when I am having a difficult time re-building my business and I am still having to deal with legal issues around the commercial lease that was terminated because I could not make rent. I have gone almost one year with no income. A lot of money went into the finish out and start up of my brick and mortar business. Through out my career I rebuilt clientele after two pregnancies, went from having a massage studio to doing solely out calls, to then opening a brick and mortar store front location with employees and a building client base. I was brining in $4-5K a month doing massage and that number was growing. Now I am lucky if I make $300 a week. Plus, I don't have my brick and mortar anymore. It was a beautiful business that gave my life meaning outside of being a mother. I enjoy helping people manage pain and it is ironic that my own pain took me down. I am having a very difficult time starting over in my career at the age of 37. I know I can do it and it will take time. But because of that F*CKing Mirena, I have lost years of productivity and growth. I have no money to invest in a new business. I am still in debt over the last business. I have lost credibility and my reputation has suffered. So, although I feel physically as good as I did the day before inserting the Mirena and I am ever so grateful for recovery, I am still mourning the loss of the world I had built for myself. Not to mention two years of complete crazy making up and down mood swings which also took a toll on my personal relationships. Sorry, I just had to vent. Bottom line, I feel great, but I am still very angry and not over the loss I have incurred due to the havoc the Mirena wreaked on my joints.