You don't have live the rest of your life in a bad Science fiction movie, or kill yourself. You can get over this garbage. It isn't easy, but it can be done.
" However I wanted to suggest for the particles - putting Alkalized Water on them? or the most alkaline substance - lye? what about depriving them of oxygen." From what I know they enjoy an oxygen free enviorment. Flood them with oxygen they don't do so well. Don't use bleach or lye on your skin, makes it worse. Hang in there it is possible to get your health and life back.