#42705
I am currently in a relationship with a great guy,Aaron. We have been together for 4 months. He has been my best friend for years and I Love Him more that anyone I have ever been with. Before my best friend, I was with a guy, Ben, that I had grown to trust very much. we were together almost a year. See, I had already been cheated on by a guy I was with only for a month,Dan, but we had been friends before that, so I didn't think he would do it to me, even though he had that reputatuion. So I had been able to open up to Ben about how I felt about cheating and how angry I was at Dan for it. We talked about it often and he swore he would never cheat on me on numorus occasions. While in this relationship with Ben, my father cheated on my mother. This was very devastating and Ben was the only person I talked to about it, which is why I had grown to trust him so much. Jump ahead 4 months from the time my father's affair happened (which problems at home where still happening...fighting, ect.), Ben and I broke up. Come to find out he cheated on me just 3 months after I confided in him about my parents. So needless to say I have MAIJOR trust issues with guys. So now I am with my best friend Aaron and things have been fine until now. The littlest things set me off into thinking he is cheating. I see myself flipping out on him and I see myself pushing him away but its like I cant stop. I tthink I am addressing it but I seem to make it worse and he is upset because he doesnt think I trust him.We seem to just be fighting about it all the time and we both know its tearing us apart. I really want to stop this....I could never forgive myself if I lost him. PLEASE HELP ME I'M DESPERATE!!!!