Re: my story: here's my experience by bella12984 ..... Anorexia & Bulimia Forum
Date: 8/19/2007 9:46:45 PM ( 14 years ago ago)
you do not need to apologize at all for your story i'm so happy that you actually did tell it. we def. went through similar phases as i too am a person of extremes and it didn't really hit me until i read your story. i never really battled anorexia though which obviously i am thank full for. i couldn't imagine that other end of the spectrum, but can still feel your pain in counting calories and the extersizing part. oh and let me tell you about scales...i knew what i weighed to the .5 of a pound. i used to weigh myself, also like you did, a million times again any weight. buying that damn scale was one of the worst things i ever did to be honest and threw it away. because of habit i still am able to tell how much i weigh at all times which is something i'm still working on getting over and not focusing on. i guess that by knowing my weight after i binged made me feel better for doing that to myself because i didn't gain any weight and could pretend it didn't happen...
oh and hiding of the food i totally feel your pain on that. it's so disturbing yet it's what happened.
i'm always here to talk if you ever want to. this has been a breath of fresh air having this forum. it's still a struggle but every little bit helps. what is your diet like now? i'm going back to raw foods and hopefulls a detox to help cleanse my body of all the garbage i put in it...then back to raw and healthy... i was originally going to be the detox a.s.a.p but i'm going to try and learn patience and do it right. i want to try this gradual or at least more so than i would normally. thanks again for the support and i'm hear if ya need me
hope to hear from you soon
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