That's funny, I used to think I must have been the only little kid with those thoughts. I remember having 'nasty' thoughts as far back as first grade. I didnt know what self-gratification was back then, but I knew i would get a 'tingle' if i walked around with my panties off lol. And i would wish that certain little boys at school would play my little 'nasty' games with me.
Wow. I have to admit that's kinda deep. I don't know what I would have done if someone - especially an adult would have participated lol. I would have been freaked OUT. I don't like older men as it is. Makes me wonder if I have some repressed memory. But it's amazing that part doesn't bother you.
I do agree with you on one thing, though: I've had little "experiences" with friends when I was a little older than 1st grade - with other kids, friends - and a lot of it seems like things that some of my adult friends experienced when they were young and they are in PIECES about it! I'm like 'wow. we did that. it was fun for a minute. I got a guilty feeling and then stopped. and now, I'm all grown up and ok.'
I guess we are all different.