k i'm back now...work was long.. anyways that's crazy that you are a flight attendant. i actually was considering doing that and had a couple interviews with a company called jet blue but i had to cancel...weird.
i'm also tired of binging and purging and feeling and not being able to stop. i lived by myself for a year and that's when i was at my worst. there were two girls that lived below me that used to ask me why my toilet would run all the time and i had to say that it was always broke, and then i decided to run bath water at the same time so that thye wouldnt catch on or really know what it was that i was doing =( i live with my sister now and tha'ts hard...very very hard also. it's also hard for me now because i dont know anyone at all in this new city and feel so lonely all the time and everyone who meets me would never guess that. they all think i'm so outgoing and fun, but no one really knows how sad i've been since i've come down here. i used to go out all the time and now i just dont do anything.
dont be scared about your clinic...it will be tough at first but you'll get through it. you're going to do so good, and hell maybe you'll even be able to help me out =)
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