wow again i dont know what to say everyone in here is not getting whta i wrote or at least how i meant it to be portrayed. i know i have issues, problems, and that my eating disorder is just one part of it. when i implied i could help i was referring to the fact that i could talk to other people with there problems if they needed anyone, if they needed any help with diet plans as i actually ironically know a lot about health and other things along those lines. i didn't mean to offend anyone. god knows i know have have a lot of things to deal with and i am starting to come to terms at them, slowly, but at least i acknowledge that fact. i thought i could talk about things that i started to realize helped me come to this place in my life and instead of support i get sarcasm and rudness, especially from another member in this forum who wouldn't even but down there real name and choose to use an anonymous name. i will no longer be saying anything i guess. sorry if i offended anyone i just wanted people to know that this type of condition or "disease" if you will can be caused by many factors and many people have it not just a certain portrayed type of individual. oh, and i wrote down how much i spent a week was because that's how bad i had gotten was the main point. i would order take out soemtimes twice a day from decent restaurants because i didn't have the energy to even go grocery shopping and a ctually put stuff together. that was my low point. but again, after so long i started to learn about detoxes and raw food diets and that's when i started to put together how much of a problem i had, and no food wasn't the problem i realized but it was more or less a drug or high type feelign that i got from purging and throwing it up and the form of control i received in my life by doing so.