i also would like to have an input for bella---i had a sister, (notice the had!!!) that had anorexia, she struggled and was in and out of treatment center for 10 years before she died. i am very well educated on the subject of anorexia. i have witnessed what she and other "true anorexics" go through. i had an indepth look into what and how they felt about themselves and their sickness. i have to say, in regards to what you have written, you seem very proud about having this so called disease. you are almost bragging about your behaviors. and you have a very healthy self-esteem, unlike a true anorexic. you even call yourself Bella--which i am sure you know means beautiful in Italian. it appears to me you wanted to get onto this sight in hopes that you will find a person that also has the so-called disease anorexia so you can buddy up with them and share you desires to feed your "habit". you are not looking to overcome your behaviors and help other. you are self centered. this sight is for people that are truely sick and are looking for help. or for those that truely want to help those that are. i do feel sorry for you, you appear to have a need that has not been met. you fill that void with food. and that alone is not a healthy outlet. i hope you find what you are looking for, but i don't think it will be here on this forum.