There is still hope. You can still meet someone and find love. However, as you and I both see a pattern of rejection in your life. Since we can't read the minds of the people rejecting you, there's really not much else you can do. Try to keep up your appearance and become a good conversationalist. I have a hard time too but I think my issue is that I'm not very sociable and really quiet which seems to turn people off. I have known people who have tried prayer. You can always pray that someone is sent your way. I feel your pain. We all want love in our lives. What is your appearance like?