Wow, THANKS, excellent advise, I will do them ALL!
"Why can't he find me?"
I'm sure it's because I don't go out much or get involved, but I sure will, and I'll continue to "work on myself" too.
I just went to our Annual Art Fair, I wasn't going to, but you guys helped me decide to "just go". I went with the attitude suggested of "discovering people" and not go there "looking" just have fun, I did, I had a GREAT time! I enjoyed all the people, I felt one with everything, the music, the art. I guess I still "Got" it, several men looked in my eyes and smiled. That hasn't happened in a long time. I'm feeling hopeful again.
I met a woman though, as I was eating and sitting on the grass listening to the band, she just came up and sat right down next to me and told me her life story, that was so nice, but alas, I asked if she ever wanted to go out and have some fun...she said "her boyfriend wouldn't let her" but at least I tried. That's the closest I've gotten to a woman friend is many many moons.
I'm so thankful for all your replies and advice, had it not been for you, I would not have gone, I normally would have just stayed home and felt bad and lonely.
And Hey! I talked to a man who had a booth who does ceramics/potter, beautiful stuff. I asked "how can I make these" he told me to go to a pottery center here and I can use their kiln and tools, just have to pay for the clay, he wrote down the websites for me, so nice, and Wayyy Coool! I'm actually interested in something now other than my cat :)
Any more advice is VERY Welcome, I can feel my life is going to take a big CHANGE, for the better. :) Thanks to you all!