down to a bottle of vodka a day now

left me. wanted to be with best buddy. i knw they were messing around. said i was too cheap not fun and boring. i drank a bottle and half vodka every other day. now down to a bottle. said i was alcoholic. been together for 1 yr. so madly in love. what to do. why has this person left. i would have given the world. i have good job wanted to by person a car. they left before i could do it. just glad i didn't have to. it would have been alot of out of pocket money for a car. now new lover will have to buy it. and it was best buddy. i should never have taken them around best buddy. knew couldn't be trusted. once you leave for one second they shacked up and you kicked so cruelly to curb. what is happening. now sit at home drowining in boatloads of vodka, watching tv, and eating peanut butter sandwiches. life cant go on like this forever. need a psychiatrist. maybe. but no health insurance. can you believe good job but no health insurance. woe is me. nothing gets better. Tweet