Thanks for hitting the nail on the head, want2bclean.
I'm so glad I chose to seek some help here cause I really needed some empathy.
It is my shame and guilt that I have to let go.
Really thanks everyone. I feel better. I was doing the same thing I did with his father, being afraid to jeopardize the relationship so you take abuse from the other person. I am the one who has to stop it and take the chance. I think one day he will empathize when he sees I will not let him abuse me. I'm just so inarticulate and I don't think fast. So I have to be careful in conversations with certain people. Does that make sense?
Thanks again. It was good talking to everyone. It's good to get other opinions too.I want to solve this, I think my attitude towards myself is the key.