That feeling of being isolated is all too familiar to me. I donít know how many times I just had to stand up and walk out of class because of the comments students & teachers used to make among themselves. No matter how much I excelled people would lose respect for me instantly. I used to crave that someone would say something to me rather than just bicker behind me. This curse definitely gave me a clear perspective of how damaging psychologically our behavior can be on others if we are careless, not only that but an eye opening view of just how many cruel people are hiding behind welcoming faces. This whole thing has taught me humility on many levels. Iíll be the last person to look down on anyone & the first person to try to understand whatís going.
Keep converting that frustration into focused energy on finding what will work for you Poopman. Thereís a combination that will work for your body. Just keep digging, trying experiments & asking questions. I wouldnít say this if I hadnít done it myself. Good luck!
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