Hang in there, Killi!!! I've been in the same rocky boat! Things will get better for you as you continue taking proactive steps to improve your health and well-being.
Just as an aside, I had to apply for public assistance - it's a pain, it's humiliating (for me, it was, anyway! LOL), and it's time-consuming, but it may help you to get over these temporary bumps in the road. Again, hang in there!