Need prayers, support, and information/advice. Love is cool too!

In 30 minutes I leave for a visit to the psychologist; it's pretty important. My mental health, my marriage, custody of my 12 year old--all are stake. My husband who is fighting the divorce emotionally on the grounds that he loves me, and that I can't stay well without his "support" will be there. I have to be strong. I've begged him for years to communicate, now that he is facing "losing" me, and his view of what life is supposed to be, well, it's essentially a death bed repentance, and I won't sacrifice any more for this marriage. He had a physical Wednesday--strong as an ox. Anyway, pray for me to be clear and strong.

As for the advice, I am not handling the stress of marriage well, nor have I for the last 12 years, if not longer. But specific advice needed:

I have mercury filling removals and a sick wisdom tooth scheduled the 14th and 21 (3 hours each). I don't know if physically/emotionally I'm up to it, but insurance and money and hopefully, health, indicate taking out the worst of the bunch be done. All and any advice for that is needed. Then the list goes one and on. Tomorrow the psychologist, Friday my daughters 18th birthday, lawyer waiting for financial info, and I just struggling to not give in to--fear and inadequacy. I have a LONG email from my son in Iraq--I couldn't deal with it yet. It is positive in a way, but he says I was a vicious verbal manipulator for years, in his estimation. OUCH. And here I was trying to be kind--trying to please everyone. Wow. I'll have to table that one for now. My head spins too easily as it is.

That paragraph was clipped from the relationship forum, so if it doesn't make all the snese in the world--I'm starting to stress. It's time to leave for the apt. soon.

Do send your love and prayers; your advice. Thanks for 'being there' over the last two years. Maya, Finally, Marywithabow, Madartist, Hannah, oh, so many of you, I can't take time to name(and the stress is shutting down my brain--I know, BREATHE>
Wish me well.

Peace and joy are coming SOON,
PJ(angel or poet, who knows)
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