Thanks for all the kind words. Yes, we're all on a journey, one that allopathic medicine is unqualified to
judge, as for many of these problems, they offer little or no help. It's like a doctor friend of mine once said:We're good at high tech diagnostics when appropropiate, giving Antibiotics when you need them, and cutting when its necessary, but other than that, we don't have much more to offer. Add to the list a few antiviral drugs (which I wouldn't touch unless I were on my last legs and thought they'd help,) and that about sums it up. A sad footnote to that quote is that my doctor friend is no longer on the planet: he succumbed to certain addictions and basically killed himself 'by accident' earlier this year.So in a very real sense, this wonderful healer couldn't heal himself. He is sorely missed in my community.
That was quite a description your husband gave. Clinical Depression must be a terrible thing to have to live with.He is brave to deal with it and so are you for hanging in there. At this point, I don't expect others to be able to hold a place of listening about my new bout of T so I appreciate this forum. There are so many woes besetting so may people. My family has had a rough few years. A brother who had colon cancer-his wife had Breast Cancer and their son (my nephew recently was diagnosed with juvenile diabete and that's just the beginning. Next to all that my problem does seem to shrink. But try to tell that to me when I'm all alone and the screaming in my ears keeps me up half the night! And as for my profession, well, I can't hear like I used to, so I'm pretty useless for mixing or mastering. I am going to start teaching again next week, but I'm putting off doing anything that requires critical listening. I can't even listen to music for enjoyment right now. I miss the clarity of the highs that up until six weeks ago, I enjoyed so much. Recently I had just purchased audiophile speakers fr my general home theater/stereo and a new pair of monitors for the studio. The irony is not lost on me.
Today I went to the ocean and hiked east, way back into the beautiful Sonoma hills, away from highway 1 and all the cars. I sat in a quiet place and gaves thanks again for what I can still hear, the birds and the distant cows and the few frogs that were croaking in a nearby pond. It was lovely. For a moment or two the T quieted down enough for me to relax....or was it the other way around?
I'm also going to try the vinpocetine . I ordered it and should receive it in a few days as well as the T Gone and serrapeptase. I'm also back to green drinks-i really like the Synergy product.
I still believe in accupuncture. It is a very subtle system and requires patience. The herbs were powerful;I felt a tingling in my ears after taking them. I'm going to try some Reiki, as I also had a number of sessions back when I originally injured my ears 10 years ago. It couldn't hurt, right?
As far as white noise goes, I haven't been attracted to that modality. I like to get into my quiet bedroom and create as little ambient noise as possible. This seems to be the best way for me to control the T. It reacts to everything, so when it has nothing to interact with, it tends to diminish a bit.
By the way: Have you found coffee, chocolate or red wine to be a problem with T? I have heard they can kick it up. I love all three in moderation, but have been cutting back to almost zero. Should I just give them up for now or do you think I can get away with at least a cup of coffee in the am?