i am certainly not the same person i was when i first came here. but i have not undergone some character change, nor have i matured that much. i got well. what i was doing was working. the shivering constantly, the racing heartbeat, the blue fingers and toes, the numbness and the twitching all over my body, the complete lack of any energy to the point of tiring after two stairsteps like i had been running a marathon, the mind numbing depression, the constant state of being in shear panic, the pea soup fog hiding me from the use of my brain, the constant feeling of being out of breath, the high blood pressure, the low body temperature, the feelings of being betrayed by the whole world, and the frustration of not getting any help whatsoever from anyone close to me - its all gone. can you tell?