I'm searching hard ! What I want out of life and because I'm lost and confused I cannot see the light! I know I deserve better! But it's always easier to look at others than yourself! AS I mentioned I have neglected to take responsibility for my life, always left it to him to fix it in hopes that it would make me happy. I know better now! I do know that I want an honest, good, healthy relationship for myself, and I am working on that, I may not be in one right now but it gives me good practice for a future one who I want and how I want to share my life.
I am 38 years old and it's a pretty scary thing to encounter so late in life! I do know that I do not want to be alone, that I need and want to share my life to the fullest! I have a lot of strength and tolerance and love but sometimes that's just not enough......
I truelly appreciate your post and I will be thinking about things for the next while...