The only thing I can say is that I hope all works out okay for you.
Please remember this...when you first came to the forum last year, you wanted to do a cleanse and had/have this love affair with raw meat. For months on end, you swore up and down and sideways that you didn't believe there was a problem. Sure enough, many months later the proof was in the toilet, and if I remember correctly it went on for 3 days. If you forget, read your own posts again because they are valuable.