Oh my gosh, so many Antibiotics - no wonder you have had Candida!!!!
And, as for your diet, you should not give a damn what others think - the ones who think it is strange are the McDonalds/Burger King crowd, slowly dying of diabetes and a million other diseases and so fat, they can barely walk let alone hope for "good personal hygiene"...
And, after reading your wish to reincarnate as a butterfly, well, that sounds beautiful. My love of Mother Nature and all her sweet, innocent children, like butterflies, makes it a pleasant visual......I'm afraid it is humans who make the picture ugly, ..
Oh well, hang in there and take your probiotics.......you will see good health in time!