Thank you Maya, Today I am dealing alittle better with it , watching my other cats play but if I start thinking about her I fall apart so I am getting all the tears I can out until I am healed.I only called my cat Asia , Angel one time today so that is a improvement. I know I did the right thing for her and I try to find comfort in that. Today was better than yesterday so thank you all for the prayers. I thought I was going to lose my mind yesterday, really ! I only cried 3 times today compared to non stop yesterday so that is a improvement too. One day at a time... again thanks to all of you here!!