You know Kevin, I hear you, it is not easy to change your life patterns. I've been working on it for 3 years, more in the past, but with hugh blocks in the middle. Very much trying to work past that. And I'm a lot older than you! For sure! It is not easy, especially when you don't have the support for what you are doing. Most of the people that I know are all into the allopathic (pharma and doctor order drugs/cures). It is not easy. Please give yourself a break. Don't be so hard on yourself, I am aware that I can be as so.
I have a sister that is soooooo upset with me because I talk about eating heathier. She does not want to hear it and we have had a few arugments about that! She sees it that I am trying to be "superior", not even close! She just doesn't want to hear it or do it!
Do what you can do for now. Don't forget your objective, but just know that you can get there.