I feel guilty about some past acts,I believe this bad karma has brought on the cancer that flows through my blood stream.
I hope some form of confession will help.
I've been married to a wonderful women for 25 years. Three years ago I cheated on her.Not just 1 time and not with just women.I had 3 different women about 8 or 9 times.I had 5 men at least 12 times there.
I will never let anyone know,no friends,family noone has a clue that these acts happened.
I've put all that behind me,asked god for forgivness,but Im having a hard time forgiving myself.I need to be free of this guilt so I can better fight cancer.
Is there a way to reverse bad karma.
I will never let my loved ones know what ive done.I will not hurt them as i have hurt myself.
Am I Lost ?