Well, what can I say. It's been well over a month now and I feel I have given this diet and vitamin E enema thing a very fair shake and I saw absolutely no improvement at all. None whatsoever. What I have experienced is I have grown extremely weak and lost much needed and hard to achieve weight and energy. Listen, I'm not attacking or critisizing the integrity of this all and I'm not saying it doesn't work for others, I am just stating my own personal experience. Which leads me to believe after 14 years of living with this I am absouletly convinced 1) I'm either cursed and destined to live out the rest of my life with this thing or 2) there are a slew of people running around giving people false hope and astronomically overexagerating their results, promises, and claims to others. Either way, all I know is I've tried pretty much everything in those 14 years. And I mean EVERYTHING! A slew of herbs, naturalpath doctors, homeopaths, GI specialists, supplements, diets, lifestyle changes, stress reduction techniques, prescription drugs, liver flushes, magnets, and that's no exageration. There's so much more I can't even begin to list it all.
I have a friend with HIV and he keeps on telling me to just accept the idea that this is my life now and the old one may never return. I have argued with him relentlessly for nearly a year now. Sadly, I am beginning he is right. I don't even know where else to turn but believe him and take on this whole new hopeless perspective. It will be one of the hardest things for me to ever accept and I just know I will struggle because my mind just doesn't want to go there. The only thing left I can think of is I have been deeply considering putting up all my assets (my car, my condo, and the little bit of cash I have) and posting an ad on E bay or Craigslist to trade all I have I'll even sign a legal document over to someone for them to garnish my entire wages for the rest of my life if they can just sign something promising me they can heal my guts and I'll be normal the rest of my life. I know tt may sound desperate, wildly irrational, or overly dramatic, but it's where I am at with this thing.
As you can see, I'm all out of ideas, and ...
IF THERE IS ANYONE AT ALL WHO IS READING THIS POST WHO KNOWS WHAT TO DO NEXT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW. I am open to ideas within reason. But, First I want proof they work.