share, care, trust....

(that's the cycle. We share, people care, so we trust and share more. That's what "we" have here on this forum... and what good relationships have. Now, if I can learn to translate from here to life...but I digress (and often too)


Autumn,
You are moving the energy, woman!
Way to go.

I, myself, am a 'money wadded up in the pocket, or purse, or whatever person. I figured it was because I wanted it to jump out and surprise me. The truth is....money and I have ISSUES, as you possibly have noticed.

So, way cool what you are doing. Now, why I have to justify my NOT doing, I don't know, but perhaps by explaining it to y'all, I figure it out for myself.

I have two money energy books--and I am not going to read them, YET! Hey, I figure, I have to be SURE I like and VALUE me, before I try to like and value money. I think it could go either way, but I'm focused on the "me" being worth it part. Trying to get me to let loose a quarter can be a battle. I'm not kidding. It can take me a month to buy something I want, and I'm talking about it being under say, $2.00. If I think it ought to be $1.50, and it is selling for $2.00, I'll just wait it out, until I either forget (I'm forgetful) or I buy it. It's funny, and I think I am good stretching money, but there is some skewed about the picture.

So, Autumn, it sounds like you are open to the possibilities, but one tiny concern. You (like myself and my dream) put down the possibility of a job in your dream city....Let me go back and 'clip it'..."So one dreary night while searching the net AGAIN for any job prospects in my target city (Dream on!)..." Now, if you really mean 'dream on, great! If not, you are doing what I do. I disparage my dream. I want to be a poet, but I'm so tenuous about it I have to demean it whenever I talk or write or think about it. I know I have to change that, and it will take time. So,if I'm 'off base' don't take it personally-- I'm just looking for reflections of myself in your posting, and it might not really be there.

On the other hand, it is the weirdest thing....sometimes if you 'let it go', it suddenly happens. So, who knows. I think flexibility and willingness is the key, and yet at heart I'm stubborn in my own way.

Today I was preening because I went to yoga class several times in a row,(okay, 6 times....and I was couldn't buy the epson salts to soak in (ohhh, my body) because I'm waiting to find them on sale....that's why I say I have 'issues' with money) anyhow-- I decided to park in a different spot at my weekly trip for veggies at the flea market to show myself that I could be flexible in more ways than one. I had told myself the goal for the day was to a)'stay present',and b) make 3 people laugh, give three hugs, and let 3 people know I cared. It didn't work out quite that way. Went to take things out to my car, and--I left my lights on.Dead battery. Worse than that--I'd decided to experiment with taking castor oil(hey it was sitting in the bathroom, I do castor oil packs, and so I thought, gee, wonder what it tastes like? (do I HAVE a brain?), Went to yoga BEFORE the flea market, and then found myself a frequent visitor to the restroom instead of having the delightful time I usually have at the flea market. (Very hard to enjoy people when your gut is rumbly and you are estimating time needed to reach bathroom. And if you miss estimate...it's scary)

Anyhow, hope I made someone laugh reading this, since I didn't manage it at the flea market (well, I confided in one friend, and she howled delightfully). And my husband came and 'rescued' me, and my dead car, then we miscommunicated...sigh...and instead of being grateful, I got aggravated as well.

I'm now going to take my well drained body and rest. Sorry I got distracted Autumn. If the gut and brain are connected, and my gut just got a car wash, maybe my brain is washed out too. teeheeteehee.
later,
pj

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