Re: Buddha was a single guy

I'm thinking that I'd better be 'very quiet" for a few days. I left the house yesterday, NOT shopping for Christmas (which I have 'vowed' not to do....and I'm sticking to it...I hope) and I got so tired I couldn't think straight--the pain increased as I was searching for the enema bag I couldn't find. So, big sigh, new day, headache....I wrote a 'grateful' list this morning....maybe that will help. Just telling everyone what a stressful week we had survived and to rejoice in that.

Maybe that will help. What concerns me most is the self-doubts....it's NOT a good sign, sigh. And I don't have time to write or read today. However, if the 'universe' is willing, I'm going to retreat on Monday.....take my homeschooler, and head to a quiet spot....or maybe leave him behind and head for a quiet spot--it's nice to have him--he's mellow and handles emergencies or makes me handle them, calmly..,

My goal for the weekend--not to raise my voice or get entangled in any arguements and to rest. Yea,and maybe not to push myself. But I didn't sleep well, and I almost picked a fight when one WASN"T warrented this morning, and that shook me up. That's when the self doubts started yelling "Maybe it IS all you. Maybe R...is just an innocent victim. Maybe YOU ARE making all this up." Shut up voices.....so, send a prayer my way, anyone who can. And I'm singing "let there be peace on earth, etc etc....till I go hoarse or my throat 'clears'.

love to all,
pj
I probably won't get time to check back till Monday.....that's my life....and that's NOT doing the 'christmas crazies'. Tweet