Short but sincere....
Autumn,
I think it's a great plan. And I think you are incredibly honest. You know you are not a fake. And it doesn't negate your sharing.
Before you leave on your trip, change your name. Seriously. Become Spring, or April, or May, or even Summer.
LET AUTUMN GO!
The universe; God, (which includes in my mind a divine mother) WIll provide. Have faith, and make a leap.
I was touched by your words and your honesty. Now, let go and let God. You asked. The deadline is a bit silly, but you don't have to do it perfectly.
I have complete faith it will work out for you. I'm serious. Stick to your plan. And trust yourself.
peace and joy,
(oh, I'm short, and sincere, the reply might not have been! lol)
pj