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How old are these two and whose fault is there death?


quazzy_qwerty: hi
Taylor: j0
Taylor: Micah was stupid
Taylor: ...
Taylor: ..
Taylor: .
Taylor: //
quazzy_qwerty: i'm having an intellegent converstion about hentai with nick
Taylor: Ooh!!! I want hentai!
Taylor: I mean...
Taylor: I want to talk about hentai
quazzy_qwerty: hes saying its good and im sending him smilies that suggest that i think otherwise...
Taylor: I totally didn't mean the first thing I said
Taylor: Woog!
quazzy_qwerty: its okay, i still love you.
Taylor: You say that like there would be a reason not too...
quazzy_qwerty:
Taylor: Woog!
quazzy_qwerty: i'm going bra shopping tommorow...
quazzy_qwerty: so i won't be home from 2-4
Taylor: >.<
quazzy_qwerty: I get to upgrade to the next size...
quazzy_qwerty:
Taylor: Thank you SO much for sharing that information
quazzy_qwerty:
Taylor: Woog!
quazzy_qwerty: i thought this was something to involve you in...
Taylor: Do you want to understand "Woog!"? Oh, I was being sarcastic, I really do want to know
quazzy_qwerty: I'm finally up to 38-DD
Taylor: Please can I explain Woog!
quazzy_qwerty: sure
Taylor: @_@
Taylor: ( oYo )
quazzy_qwerty: put im gonna go get chinese food while you do it
Taylor: teh boobies
Taylor: Woog!
quazzy_qwerty: are you going to explain???
Taylor: Oh, let me find the address that explains.
quazzy_qwerty: i'll go get my chow mein
quazzy_qwerty: im back
Taylor: almost found it
quazzy_qwerty: micah initiated conversation...
Taylor: Woog!
quazzy_qwerty: i told him about the amv with sephiroth and...
quazzy_qwerty: never mind... i dont wanna talk about it...
Taylor: ?
quazzy_qwerty: i already told you about it.
Taylor: Oh...
quazzy_qwerty:
Taylor: Please don't cry... it makes me sad to see you unhappy...
Taylor: http://ffvault.ign.com/screenshots/?ss=1298&view=ss&page=8&subcat=55 Here!!! go Here!!!
Taylor: There is woog-ness there!!!
quazzy_qwerty: kk
Taylor: Do you understand the awesomeness of Woog! now?
quazzy_qwerty: ya
quazzy_qwerty: can i send you amvs yet?
Taylor: Isn't it great?
quazzy_qwerty: ya
Taylor: No, grandma closed out the Norton Antivirus cuz' she wanted e-bay and I started it about an hour ago... its at 46%
quazzy_qwerty:
quazzy_qwerty: i'm thinking that nick never played ff7...
Taylor: Oh... poop.
quazzy_qwerty: ??
Taylor: that he's never played 7
quazzy_qwerty: i was explaining what i saw in the amv with out actually typing it and he said something about yaoi...
Taylor: @_@
Taylor: Wanna' see something crazy?
quazzy_qwerty: sure
Taylor: I'm not sure if it will post right though...
Taylor: /tell Yukimura I've been playing too much FFXI Oh no! Gob spawn!!!
/equip "Two-Handed Sword +1"
/ra
/attack
/tell Yukimura Oh no!!! Its killing us!
/macro5:
/say Taste Mah Blade!!! (Weapon Skill) Frostbite) ~~>
/ws "Frostbite"
/ja "Mighty Strikes"
/shout (Raise) (Please.)
/tell Yukimura We got it but we need to zone C~Ya!

This message has been brought to you in FFXI-Vision!
Taylor: 0oops, disregard that
Taylor: I was fixing it
Taylor: F**k...
Taylor: Sorry bout that
quazzy_qwerty: ...
quazzy_qwerty: did micah tell you he was going to bed?
quazzy_qwerty: pizza pocket
quazzy_qwerty:
quazzy_qwerty: ?
quazzy_qwerty: where did you go??
quazzy_qwerty:
quazzy_qwerty: where are you??!?
Taylor: /tell Yukimura I've been playing too much FFXI Oh no! Gob spawn!!!
/equip "Two-Handed Sword +1"
/ra
/attack
/tell Yukimura Oh no!!! Its killing us!
/macro5:
/say Taste Mah Blade!!! (Weapon Skill) (Frostbite) ~~>
/ws "Frostbite"
/ja "Mighty Strikes"
/shout (Raise) (Please.)
/tell Yukimura We got it but we need to zone C~Ya!

This message has been brought to you in FFXI-Vision!
Taylor: There, its even in the right colors now
Taylor: Sorry, I had it stuck scrolled up when I was fixing it
quazzy_qwerty: oh...
Taylor: Yeah, that was a PM of what had been happening while I was PMing him.
quazzy_qwerty: what time shouls I call you tommorow?
Taylor: shouls?
Taylor: lolz
Taylor: I love you
quazzy_qwerty: Me to Nick: I wanted to die...

Nick to Me: If you die, Taylor won't be happy.

Taylor: Ooh, upside down cake avatar ^.^
Taylor: WTF?!?!
quazzy_qwerty: its like hes saying you would be the only one who cared...
Taylor: Thats not what he meant and you know it...
quazzy_qwerty: ...
quazzy_qwerty: thats what it sounded like to me...
Taylor: Oh... I'm sorry...
Taylor: ^.^
Taylor: You're right, this is fun... I'm sorry for getting mad
Taylor: about it last time
quazzy_qwerty: now hes saying he doesn't love me..
Taylor: Nick?!!?!
quazzy_qwerty: ya
Taylor: I'll F**king kill him!!!
quazzy_qwerty: you dont have to censor yourself...
Taylor: Yeah I do... its how I am
quazzy_qwerty: oh...
Taylor: I'm just so used to it that I can't think of any other way to do it
quazzy_qwerty: oh...
Taylor: I love you so much
Taylor: This is way too much fun...
quazzy_qwerty: i love you too...
Taylor: Hmmm...is this really any better?
Taylor: Naw, the other way is better
Taylor: Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
quazzy_qwerty: i love you.
Taylor: wuv j00 2
quazzy_qwerty:
Taylor: ^.^
Taylor: Have you been reading my Vana'diel Diary in the Other Games section?
Taylor: Have you been reading my Vana'diel Diary in the Other Games section?
quazzy_qwerty: i think nick is mad at me
Taylor: Why?
quazzy_qwerty: I do. JUst as much as I'm allowed to. Your not my g/f amanda. I'm not allowed to love you more then Taylor. It's in my code of honor.

quazzy_qwerty: ...
Taylor: WTF?!
quazzy_qwerty: everyones always getting mad at me..
Taylor: Oh, is that what he said?
Taylor: Wait... is he saying that he'd go out with you if we weren't going out?
quazzy_qwerty: no, otherwise we probable would have been... Audrey gave him the opportunity and he said he would rather die...
Taylor: ?
Taylor: I am confused...
Taylor: Oh, I get it now
Taylor: I was reading it wrong
quazzy_qwerty: he said he would rather die...
Taylor: I'm going to stab him in the head. I'll make him wish he was dead...
quazzy_qwerty: he wants to die...
Taylor: I'll help the bastard with that
quazzy_qwerty: he is just trying to be a good friend to you...
Taylor: If he was my friend he would be kind and respectful to you as wel...
quazzy_qwerty: he tries his best... I just confuse him because he knows I used to like him...
quazzy_qwerty: He just wants to make sure i know he's off limits...
Taylor: He doesn't have to be such an %¤#&!§-about it
quazzy_qwerty: he doesn't know how else to get his point across... It's not a problem he's had to deal with before...
Taylor: He needs more tact... I'll give him some with a large stick and severely beat it into him.
quazzy_qwerty: He's figuring it out...
Taylor: He had better.
quazzy_qwerty: You know, he really wants our relationship to work out. Even when we broke up he kept a bit of distance so when we got back together he wouldn't be in the picture.
quazzy_qwerty: He convinced me to talk things out with you instead of dumping my feelings on him...
Taylor: Oh, I see...
Taylor: I have to get off soon...
quazzy_qwerty: oh...
quazzy_qwerty: do you like this picture better than the other one?
Taylor: My grandma needs to use eBay and such...
quazzy_qwerty: oh...
Taylor: I have no real preference... I would rather be able to see you in person.
quazzy_qwerty: i miss you...
Taylor: I miss you too...
quazzy_qwerty: my inbox is 5% full and empty...
quazzy_qwerty: it used to go to -15%
quazzy_qwerty: ...
Taylor: ?!?!
quazzy_qwerty: ...
quazzy_qwerty: that 20% gone...
Taylor: How is that possible...?
quazzy_qwerty: I don't know...
quazzy_qwerty: when can I send you those amvs?
Taylor: Tomorrow, hopefully. I'll make grandma keep the scan up tonight.
quazzy_qwerty: i'm kinda hoping for that disk when I see you for christmas...
quazzy_qwerty: We still need to make plans for that...
Taylor: ?
Taylor: Disc?
quazzy_qwerty: ?????
Taylor: Oh, that one
quazzy_qwerty:
quazzy_qwerty: can you put a copy of paint on the disk?
Taylor: I'll try...
quazzy_qwerty: i don't have it on my laptop... and maybe solitare too.
quazzy_qwerty: ... waiting for replies from nick is really boring...
Taylor: Odd... I thought you said that he responds really fast...
quazzy_qwerty: i'm asking him serious questions and he had to think
Taylor: Oh
quazzy_qwerty: hes going to bed now...
quazzy_qwerty: I think i stressed him out...
Taylor: F**ker...
quazzy_qwerty: ...
quazzy_qwerty: ???
Taylor: He's leaving...
quazzy_qwerty: i probably stressed him out...
Taylor: I needed to finish some stuff on the RP with him...
quazzy_qwerty: i was asking him if we ever would have dated if i wasn't dating you...
quazzy_qwerty:
quazzy_qwerty: dont be mad at me...
Taylor: Its okay...
quazzy_qwerty: okay
Taylor: ...
quazzy_qwerty: ?
quazzy_qwerty: i was just curious...
Taylor: Oh
quazzy_qwerty: when audrey asked him if he would go out with me the first time he said he would need to think...
quazzy_qwerty: and i was just curious...
quazzy_qwerty: are you mad?
Taylor: ...
Taylor: no...
quazzy_qwerty: can you explain what the dots mean?
Taylor: No
quazzy_qwerty: why?
Taylor: Because I just don't want to
quazzy_qwerty:
Taylor: Didn't you say you liked dots anyway?
quazzy_qwerty: the game.
Taylor: ...
quazzy_qwerty: i'm sorry, i went to far.
Taylor: No, its not that
quazzy_qwerty: i shouldn't have done that.
Taylor: Its just frustrating to hear something like that...
quazzy_qwerty: i shouldn't even be thinking about it
quazzy_qwerty: i'm sorry
Taylor: No, you had every right to think that
Taylor: I shouldn't have power over what you think
Taylor: God knows that you can't stop me from thinking the things I do... ^.^
quazzy_qwerty: i just wanted to know if i had waisted all those years on him to get no response...
quazzy_qwerty: you know that no matter what he said it woulndn't matter to me right?
Taylor: Its understandable... pay no attention to that last comment...
Taylor: Yeah
quazzy_qwerty: Because you are the only one I could ever love.
quazzy_qwerty: ever
Taylor: That makes me all warm and fuzzy inside
Taylor: Like I just ate a kitten or something
quazzy_qwerty:
quazzy_qwerty: (with tears)
quazzy_qwerty: I just want you to be happy...
Taylor: Only without the remorse and regret of eating a kitten because I could never actually eat a kitten
quazzy_qwerty: thats all that really matters to me
Taylor: Same here, only I want it for you
quazzy_qwerty: You know, I dont think audrey wanted us together.
Taylor: You and me?
Taylor: Why?
Taylor: You think she still likes me or something?
quazzy_qwerty: she invited me to her house that night to drink and then she started telling me that I was just an experiment in your teenage mind, and that you never really cared.
Taylor: Thats horrible...
quazzy_qwerty: she told you all of those horrible lies...
Taylor: And she did tell me that thing about Nick right before we got back together
Taylor: Ya, those
quazzy_qwerty: I think she is just jealous of you for taking me from her...
quazzy_qwerty: You believed her... didn't you.
Taylor: I didn't know what to believe when we broke up
Taylor: I thought i had something solid to lean on any time any place but even that crumbled underneath me and I just couldn't think straight for a while.
quazzy_qwerty: i guess it did look possible... I was sitting with nick the whole night...
quazzy_qwerty: but he's the only one that stayed with me... that even thought i might need someone to lean on for a while...
quazzy_qwerty: Everyone else just left me
quazzy_qwerty: and all we talked about was you
Taylor: I just had no idea... I wanted so badly for a reason to be mad at you for leaving me alone but I loved you too much... I really didn't want to say it but I wanted to hate you but I couldn't...
quazzy_qwerty: and how much i loved you and how much i missed you...
Taylor: I could never hate you...
Taylor: I love you too much and too deeply to ever do that
quazzy_qwerty: its okay... because i was doing the same thing... even if it didn't work.
Taylor: Please don't be angry at me...
Taylor: 1-Up
Taylor: ...
Taylor: Woog!
quazzy_qwerty: i felt so alone and i wanted so much to blame you for everthing... but i knew it was my fault too
Taylor: ...
Taylor: That was the way I felt too...
quazzy_qwerty: and thats when nick gave me the best advice of my life...
Taylor: I wanted to blame it all on oyu but I couldn't because I knew it wasn;t tru
quazzy_qwerty: i'll never forget what he said...
Taylor: *wasn't true
Taylor: What was it?
Taylor: ?
quazzy_qwerty: He told me to quit listening to my brain and start listening to my heart. Then he told me to tell him what I wanted. When I did he told me to tell you... and that he would be there, right aroung the corner while i did it in case things went wrong...
Taylor: Wow...
quazzy_qwerty: I could tell then that he really wanted me to be happy...
quazzy_qwerty: He waited, right there.
quazzy_qwerty: He heard everything we said.
quazzy_qwerty: He wanted to make sure that if things went wrong he could stop it before i got hurt more...
Taylor: What was he going to do? Beat me up?
quazzy_qwerty: stop whatever was happening...
Taylor: Whay else could he do about something like that...
quazzy_qwerty: In case you started saying things...
Taylor: *What
quazzy_qwerty: or something like that...
quazzy_qwerty: i'm sure he would have tried if he had too.
quazzy_qwerty: he wanted us both to be happy
quazzy_qwerty: he wanted to be there in case either of us needed him
Taylor: I'm grateful that he helped us, but it ticks me off that he thinks he could just stop me from saying what I felt
Taylor: Its like he was trying to censor who I am
quazzy_qwerty: if things got too bad, i like the idea that i would have someone to protect me...
quazzy_qwerty: just like i would expect you to do if it was someone else...
quazzy_qwerty: just like you always have...
Taylor: I really dislike him
quazzy_qwerty: why?
Taylor: I just do right now
quazzy_qwerty: why?
Taylor: He was acting like he could control me
Taylor: No one controls me
quazzy_qwerty: he was just there to separate us if i needed him to.
quazzy_qwerty: to pull me out if i couldn't handle it...
Taylor: I don't think it was fair to have him judge me like that
Taylor: Like he could stop something from happening
quazzy_qwerty: he told me that he would only do it if i wanted him to
Taylor: Being cocky like that pisses me off
quazzy_qwerty: he was trying to be a good friend
quazzy_qwerty: he was trying to help us and protect me
Taylor: ...
quazzy_qwerty: he was doing it the only way he knows how.
Taylor: I just don't like him
quazzy_qwerty: he really cares about you...
Taylor: I'm not someone who can be pushed around
Taylor: Like he thought I could
quazzy_qwerty: and he helped remind me of how much i do too.
quazzy_qwerty: thats not what he thought
Taylor: I gave him my gratitude
quazzy_qwerty: he just wanted to be there for me
Taylor: What did he think then?
quazzy_qwerty: no one else did that for me
Taylor: That he would stop me if you wanted him to and I would just let it happen because everyone thinkd I'm a pushover
Taylor: *thinks
quazzy_qwerty: he knows it wouldn't be that easy, but at least he was there to try if he had to
Taylor: You're defending him...
quazzy_qwerty: he was the only one really there for me
quazzy_qwerty: i felt so alone
Taylor: I would've been there given the chance but it was you who had pushed me away...
quazzy_qwerty: he helped remind me of what i still had to live for
Taylor: So I had no choice
quazzy_qwerty: why do you have to do this to me?
quazzy_qwerty: why cant you let me be happy?
quazzy_qwerty: I did what i had to do
Taylor: What am I doing?
quazzy_qwerty: i just didn't want to be hurt anymore
Taylor: Its like you don't want me to speak my mind...
quazzy_qwerty: dont you understand?
Taylor: Apparently not
quazzy_qwerty: i dont want to hurt
quazzy_qwerty: i want to be loved
quazzy_qwerty: i want to know what that feels like
Taylor: I do love you
quazzy_qwerty: i want someone that cares about me
Taylor: and I want to be loved too
quazzy_qwerty: and i dont want to get hurt anymore
quazzy_qwerty: thats why i did it
Taylor: I just don't want to be controlled
quazzy_qwerty: you hurt me over and over and i couldnt take it anymore
quazzy_qwerty: i want to be treated like the woman i am
Taylor: You know I didn't do it on purpose...
quazzy_qwerty: i want respect
Taylor: That would be mean and spiteful
quazzy_qwerty: i want a boyfriend who puts me first
quazzy_qwerty: i want to know what its like to be pampered
quazzy_qwerty: i want to know that you care and that you will always be there for me
quazzy_qwerty: and i dont want to hurt anymore
Taylor: I always will be there and I will always care for you
Taylor: But if you're the only thing in my life then I have room for nothing else
Taylor: 000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
Taylor: .Oops, i was wiping off a keyboard button...
Taylor: On the # pad...
quazzy_qwerty: i dont want to be the only thing, i just want to be at the top of the list
quazzy_qwerty: i'm tired of being but 2nd with everyone
Taylor: Thats what it felt like to me... like if I did anything else you would just be mad at me...
quazzy_qwerty: i tired of everyone having more important things to do then be with
quazzy_qwerty: me
Taylor: ...
quazzy_qwerty: i'm tired of how i've been treated by any guy thats ever been in my life
quazzy_qwerty: and i just wanted this relationship to be different
Taylor: I'm not just any guy...
Taylor: I don't want to be treated like I am...
quazzy_qwerty: and i am your girlfriend
quazzy_qwerty: and i expect to be treated like it
Taylor: What does that mean?
Taylor: I don't seem to understand it...
quazzy_qwerty: you pick your priorities, but if i'm put 2nd again, you might as well take me off your list
Taylor: OW!!!
quazzy_qwerty: i'm not getting hurt again
Taylor: It hurts!!!
Taylor: Its gone now...
Taylor: Thats not me picking my priorities, you are.
quazzy_qwerty: i'm not going to let you keep hurting me
Taylor: It seems to me as though you're saying either your way or no way though...
Taylor: Like you're controlling me...
Taylor: The one thing I don't ever want to happen, I want to be free to make my own choics...
Taylor: I want to be free, but with you
quazzy_qwerty: i guess you better pick whats important to you then
Taylor: Thats all I ever wanted...
quazzy_qwerty: i'm tired of getting hurt
Taylor: Why are you making me choose between my freedom and love?
quazzy_qwerty: its not something i'll ever get used to
Taylor: Why are you doing this to me...
quazzy_qwerty: no matter how hard i try, i dont know how to keep myself from getting hurt
quazzy_qwerty: but i know that i'm not getting put in the backseet again
Taylor: I don't feel good at all, I think I'm going to be sick all over the keyboard right now. I may be a while vefore i respond...
quazzy_qwerty: you would sit there with all these people not even noticing me
Taylor: This and the horrible ringing sound is unbearable...
quazzy_qwerty: i felt so alone even though i was right next to you
quazzy_qwerty: and you never even thought of how it made me feel
quazzy_qwerty: did you ever even think about how it made me feel?
Taylor: How do you think I felt while we were broken up? You just dumped me like garbage, you treated me like I was nothing...
quazzy_qwerty: like you did before
Taylor: For the first time in my life I was being truly ignored...
quazzy_qwerty: everything and everyone else was put before me
quazzy_qwerty: like i meant nothing
Taylor: By someone I cared about with my heart and soul
Taylor: You don't want me to do anything while we're together do you?
Taylor: It seems like you're shutting me off from everything else...
quazzy_qwerty: was last week really that bad?
Taylor: When we were apart?
quazzy_qwerty: i thought you were okay with how things were going
quazzy_qwerty: no
Taylor: When then?
quazzy_qwerty: when we started again
quazzy_qwerty: i thought things were working well
quazzy_qwerty: i thought you were okay with it
quazzy_qwerty: were you just lieing then?
Taylor: No, but the way you're talking it seems as though you want me to shut everything else out of my life
Taylor: Like if I do anything thats not with you that it would be putting you second and you'll break up with me
Taylor: I feel horrible to be treated like that
quazzy_qwerty: and i hate being expected to sit next to you silently while you do whatever it is you do
Taylor: Like I'm walking on eggshells with everything I do because I want you to be happy but I don't want to sacrifice my personal freedoms
quazzy_qwerty: thats how i've been treated my whole life
quazzy_qwerty: i'm sick of it
Taylor: I never said I wanted that and I don't
Taylor: I just want to be able to do things I want to do sometimes...
quazzy_qwerty: you mean all of the time
Taylor: Please don't put words into my mouth
quazzy_qwerty: you complained anytime i ever wanted you to myself for a little while
Taylor: I never said that and with good reason
Taylor: Because its not true
quazzy_qwerty: you complained when i asked you to walk with me to get milk
quazzy_qwerty: you complained when i asked to talk to you alone
quazzy_qwerty: you never wanted to work on our problems
quazzy_qwerty: you just acted like they didn't exist
Taylor: I did want to...
Taylor: I really did
Taylor: ...
Taylor: thats not what I meant to happen...
quazzy_qwerty: it never is
Taylor: What do you mean by that?
quazzy_qwerty: no one ever wants that, but you didn't try to change it, so guess what happened
Taylor: Why are you being so mean...
quazzy_qwerty: i'm being honest
Taylor: You've never been like this before
Taylor: It hurts to hear you say those things...
quazzy_qwerty: you never gave me a chance to speak my mind before
Taylor: This is what you really think about me?
quazzy_qwerty: you never wanted to hear what I had to say
Taylor: I did want you to speak your mind
Taylor: You seemed to
Taylor: But I guess those were all lies then?
quazzy_qwerty: all i ever wanted from you was for you to try to work on or relationship
quazzy_qwerty: but you never thought that was important enough i guess
Taylor: I did...
Taylor: PLease don't say things like that...
Taylor: *Please
quazzy_qwerty: if i dont see you again... i just want you to know that i always loved you
Taylor: why are you saying that?
Taylor: No!
Taylor: I love you!!!
Taylor: Please!
Taylor: You're more important to me than enything EVER
quazzy_qwerty: i dont want to hurt anymore
Taylor: I don't want to lose you
Taylor: I'll never let you hurt ever again...
quazzy_qwerty: but your not perfect, and you never will be
Taylor: I want only the best, and if that meant spending every minute of every day then I'd do it in a heartbeat
Taylor: I realize that now...
Taylor: Life without you is nothing
Taylor: Its the same as being dead...
Taylor: All the colors of life, all my happiness, everything just drains away until there is nothing left...
Taylor: If I was ever truly without you then I would die of sorrow and drown in a lake of my own tears...
Taylor: I would have nothing left to live for and my body would just give up trying...
Taylor: Please, don't go...
Taylor: I may not be perfect... but I'll try my best... anything for you...
Taylor: Please, say something....
quazzy_qwerty: you said that before too...
Taylor: I feel so alone...
Taylor: Please don't go, I don't want to be in the dark and cold again
quazzy_qwerty: all i ever wanted was for you to be happy
Taylor: Thats what life is without you
Taylor: Just dark and cold
Taylor: Without you I have nothing to be happy about
quazzy_qwerty: sometimes i wondered if you would be happier if i just left you alone
Taylor: I would have no-one to share my joys and triumphs with
Taylor: I would have no-one to seek comfort with when I felt sad and alone
quazzy_qwerty: i tried letting you do what you wanted and only being there when you asked me too, but then i had no one for myself
Taylor: Without you I would always be somewhat alone without you to be there for me
quazzy_qwerty: but when i needed you, you didn't want to be there.
Taylor: I'll try harder
Taylor: As hard as I can
Taylor: And then some even
quazzy_qwerty: thats what you said all of the other times too
Taylor: I have nothing else to give but my promise and myself, I just want you to accept both...
Taylor: I readily give them both to you if you'll just ask
quazzy_qwerty: i need sleep
Taylor: >.<
quazzy_qwerty: i hate that face
Taylor: You killed my drama streak...
Taylor: I was in the moment and everything too...
quazzy_qwerty: i dont want your drama
quazzy_qwerty: i want you
Taylor: And I am yours...
Taylor: I've just always wanted to make a dramatic speech like that... Its kinda' been one of my dreams
quazzy_qwerty: you say this now, but high school will be over soon and i will be alone again
quazzy_qwerty: what then
Taylor: That doesn't mean that it wasn't true
Taylor: Then I will be with you wherever you go to the best of my ability
quazzy_qwerty: no you wont
Taylor: If I cannot be directly by your side at all times, then I will be there as long and often as my life will allow it...
quazzy_qwerty: i'll be left with this whole forever trying everyway i know how to fix it
Taylor: No you won't
Taylor: I'll be there
Taylor: To fill it
quazzy_qwerty: you'll be exactly where you are now
Taylor: With you
quazzy_qwerty: and no one knows where i will be
Taylor: Maybe not physically, but a part of me will always be with you
quazzy_qwerty: that doesn't mean i will always feel it
Taylor: That day we spent under the blanket in your room, when I was sweating and my heart was beating i my chest, threatening to break free...
Taylor: That day when I told you ho wI felt about you, how I loved you
Taylor: The day when I went home and couldn't stop smiling because I knew that as long as there was a tomorrow that you would be there in it to be with me
Taylor: On that day part of my left and stayed with you, where it will always be, just as you will always in some way be with me...
Taylor: 'Struth, or at least how I believe it to be...
Taylor: I just want it to be how you feel too...
quazzy_qwerty: that may be so... but that doesn't change the fact that things cant last forever
quazzy_qwerty: i'll leave, and you'll still be here
Taylor: They'll last as long as I can make them
Taylor: Why would you leave?
quazzy_qwerty: and i'll probably never se you after that
Taylor: After what?
quazzy_qwerty: i'll go to college and find a job...
quazzy_qwerty: and i'll never see you again
Taylor: Thats not true! Take that back!
quazzy_qwerty: its true and you know it
Taylor: We'll be together forever...
quazzy_qwerty: you say that now...
quazzy_qwerty: but you've also told me that no matter where i go you'll still be there, on your little islan
quazzy_qwerty: and i'll be where ever it is i end up
quazzy_qwerty: through college and graduate school
Taylor: I've lost my will to live just now... i'm so sorry...
Taylor: Please forgive me
quazzy_qwerty: and then i'll work were ever they end up putting me
quazzy_qwerty: what do you mean?
Taylor: For not wanting to live anymore
quazzy_qwerty: don't say that
Taylor: The thought of being apart tears me apart inside like we will be in distance
Taylor: I just don't want to suffer through that
Taylor: I don't think I would survive...
Taylor: I'm so very sorry...
quazzy_qwerty: did you forget about after high school?
Taylor: My hands are shaking... I feel very dizzy right nnow
quazzy_qwerty: dont talk like that!
Taylor: 'Struth...
Taylor: I wouldn't lie
quazzy_qwerty: i love you and i want to be with you forever
Taylor: I feel like the whole world is spinning and there won't be anybody there to catch me when I get too dizzy and fall
quazzy_qwerty: i'll always be there if you really need me
Taylor: Its really true... you will be gone
Taylor: I can't believe i was so childish thinking that you would want to be dragged down with me
Taylor: You will be happy and successful...
quazzy_qwerty: you can come with me
Taylor: And i will be alone and dead on the inside
Taylor: Rotting away on the outside
quazzy_qwerty: we can get married and be together forever
Taylor: The slowest death there is
Taylor: You still feel everything but you're not a part of it
quazzy_qwerty: stop it!
Taylor: You're separate, fully aware that you're dying but you can do nothing about it
quazzy_qwerty: Stop it!
Taylor: Just wait to be released from the pain
Taylor: to eternal nothing
quazzy_qwerty: dont talk like that!
Taylor: Why?
Taylor: Its the truth
Taylor: and you know it
quazzy_qwerty: we're going to get married and be together forever
Taylor: to quote you
quazzy_qwerty: you're going to come with me
Taylor: Don't dream something impossible
quazzy_qwerty: and we'll never be apart
quazzy_qwerty: never
Taylor: YOu'll just be brought back down to earth by reality from your flights of fancy and the impact will likely kill you
Taylor: I'm surviving just barely
Taylor: day to day
Taylor: moment to moment
Taylor: I might even miss one or two and then it will all be over
Taylor: No more days
Taylor: No more moments
Taylor: nothing
quazzy_qwerty: we are going to get married and have little babies and be together forever, happy.
Taylor: We're going to be separate and die alone
quazzy_qwerty: And I'll get to teach them
Taylor: Thats how everyone is in the end
quazzy_qwerty: You will be able to play with them and teach them everything you know too
Taylor: They won't exist
quazzy_qwerty: and we will all be happy together
quazzy_qwerty: just like things should be
Taylor: It will never happen because you'll go away and leave me alone on my little island, just like you said
quazzy_qwerty: you'll come with me
Taylor: No
quazzy_qwerty: I'll go and you will come too
Taylor: Because I have to be around to take care of what little family as I watch them die one by one
Taylor: First my grandparents from age
Taylor: Then my mother from the Hepatitis
Taylor: Mackenzie will die from her illness
quazzy_qwerty: STOP IT!!!
quazzy_qwerty: you're wrong!
Taylor: William will be dead because of his own recklessness
Taylor: and then I'll be alone
Taylor: This is the truth
Taylor: Its how I feel every day
Taylor: Knowing that one day it WILL happen and I WILL be alone
Taylor: I'm just getting prepared for it now
quazzy_qwerty: i dont want to live anymore
Taylor: No, you go on
Taylor: Thats the only thing that keeps me going
quazzy_qwerty: i dont want to be happy if your not
Taylor: Is the thought of your happiness
Taylor: The only moments of true untainted happiness are from being with you
quazzy_qwerty: then why wont you come with me?
Taylor: Everything else is smeared with loneliness and solitude
Taylor: I told you
Taylor: I cannot leave my family
Taylor: Until they are gone
quazzy_qwerty: then i wont leave you either
Taylor: GO!
Taylor: BE HAPPY!
quazzy_qwerty: i'll stay with you
Taylor: I WANT YOU TO GO AND BE HAPPY!
quazzy_qwerty: then, when you're ready to leave, I'll go
quazzy_qwerty: I can wait and will wait for you
Taylor: I'm empty on the inside...
Taylor: There's nothing I can give you
Taylor: You have nothing to stay for...
quazzy_qwerty: i have you
Taylor: Leave me and pursue happiness
Taylor: elsewhere
quazzy_qwerty: you are my happiness
Taylor: I shouldn't be
quazzy_qwerty: but you are
Taylor: If anything I've only caused you more pain
Taylor: You said it yourdelf
Taylor: Just like every other guy in your life
Taylor: I've hurt you to no end
Taylor: I don't want to end up hurting you any more
Taylor: Or anyone else
quazzy_qwerty: but you've always been there to fix it, unlike the rest of them
Taylor: I won't always be there, haven't you been paying attention?
Taylor: Thats what I have been saying
quazzy_qwerty: i'll always be there with you
Taylor: No, I will likely be gone
Taylor: It is always a possibility that I may...
Taylor: just...
Taylor: snap
quazzy_qwerty: And I'll always try my best to help you
Taylor: You can't help whats already gone
Taylor: I'm too broken to fix
quazzy_qwerty: but i'll still try
Taylor: Its no use
Taylor: just leave me alone and be happy
quazzy_qwerty: i cant be happy without you
Taylor: All I'll do is bring you down and hurt you more, do you really want that?
 

 
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