Thank you very much for the kind words! You are right about the fact that "sticking with it" has taken it's toll on my children and myself. The reason I wrote this message is that I do not want to do the wrong thing - Life and Happeness is way too inportant to get into further complications. My friend has been very supportive to me as a person and she has lifted my self-esteem so very much. You are right also that I am not ready for a sexual relationship it will only make matters worse. I have told her in the past that I only wish to be friends. The strong feelings have developed unexpectivly. She was very nervious about asking me about the affair. I just do not want to loose the love that we share for each other. Thanks