Dealing with 1st break up

I posted here before about a near break up and i thought it was over well now im almost sure it is and im devistated. The end of my 1st relationship after 5 months. I still love her very much and i pray to god she will change her mind but we have had trouble resently and I get the feeling it isnt meant to be :( I know the worst thing to do is hound her and beg her to take me back so i wont do that but I dont know what to do with myself. I feel like getting sloshed off my face but that will be a temporary fix of corse. Any advice to get over the pain? Tweet