I do a lot of torturous things as well. I can't seem to stop. I understand your shock as well. I went from last Friday night planning to be married to this girl to Saturday night being told it was over. I went from talking to her every day for two and a half years to not speaking to her ever again. If I saw it comming I could deal. I imagine you feel the same. I didn't though, which makes it 100 times more difficult. I imagine you feel the same. What also makes it so hard is not knowing the reason. You said you weren't given one either which is telling as to why we are in the same boat. How can someone go from talking about houses and babies to never talking to you again. I don't know about you, but I planned my whole life around my future with this girl. Set up my financial plan too. Everything in the furure was based on us rather than me. Now it is back to me. Like you I hate the single life so that compounds the problem. I keep telling myself that it took me my whole life to find her and now I will have to wait another 28 years to find someone that makes me as happy. Logically I know this is silly, but logic doesn't work right now.