Re: Wow...
Ronin,
Believe it or not, I don't live in your neck of the woods. I live in boring old Michigan. I did find that stuff on Google. But, to explain, I just get very creative with my searches using multiple boodlean searches that are a little more specific to what I want. I think I used things like "silicon valley," "business," "non-profit," "volunteer," etc. When I don't get great results, I take back the parameters, or in some cases make them more specific. And yes, I did go through the pages to see if there was anything that sounded like something you could benefit from. That is why some of the pages were straight to applications or details. Maybe I should have become a research librarian. LOL.
I do have a belief in Karma and past lives - or something in the approximate range I guess. The thing is, I don't think you should worry about what you may or may not have done in your past (this life or any other). Well, you can feel a certain level of regret, but don't let it prohibit you from living your life. Learn and move forward in a more positive way. In terms of not having positive relationships, if you don't have a positive relationship with yourself, you won't have the emotional stability or clarity to have that type of relationship with another person. So, your decision of holding back for a while is a good move. Get a hold on what you want for your own development, the other stuff will fall into place. Concentrate on NOW not the past or the future. You can plan for the future, but don't obsess about it, okay?
FOY