I wasn't really able to understand everything in your post, for two reasons,...lack of punctuation (I couldn't really follow each thought because the thoughts were not clearly separated by punctuation), everything was in capitals (that's very hard on the eyes because the letters are too big to be read comfortably by a simple glance, and that makes reading the post a CHORE), please pick a smaller font (12 point). You are probably not aware of this, but, writing everything in capital letters is considered rude,...it's called hollering. I don't blame you for being so upset after 33 years, but the first thing to do is Calm Down. Please repost a message that can be read easily.