It is refreshing to hear someone refuse to fear God (1 John 4:18 "In PERFECT love there is no fear..."). The fear of The Lord is a commandment of men (Isaiah 29:13, God is speaking about those who worship Him with their lips but their heart is far from Him). You have shown that you cannot be satisfied by mere paper and ink and the law you look to is in the heart (2 Corinthians 3:3). You're right to remember what God is (love). God is not faith, God is "the greatest of these" (1 Corinthians 13:13).
The disatisfaction of the righteous for what this world has to offer is a holy thing.