Hi PBT! i know how much you're hurting now, and i know it seems like the end of the world, but it's NOT! "NEXT" him!! move onto the next guy, because you don't deserve to be treated that way...nobody does. just thank God this happened now and not after you married him or something...imagine what a horrid life THAT would be. Don't Pretzel Brain Twist over this...you did nothing wrong, the problem lies in HIM, not you! Keep busy, join a gym, take karate lessons (great for getting out aggression), take a class at your local college, just KEEP BUSY. don't stay at home, you'll just want to lament...go to the bookstore. there's a GREAT book out there by Rhonda Fielding called (appropriately enough) "Don't Call That Man!" it's wonderful and VERY eye-opening. I swear, you'll read it and go, "what the hell was i thinking?!?!?" you don't deserve this crap...hang in there and good luck!