Re: Keep posting, Firework. Many are with you.

Hi Fledgling,

I feel hungry but I can't disgest the food I ate (I have 3/4 stomach removed a few years ago). The tissues around my neck and chest bone are very uncomfortable. Those radiotherapy, herbal tea and Chemo couldn't shrink my swelling. I have a head as big as a water-melon and a neck as thick as elephant leg. When I look into the mirror, I see a hairless ball hanging on a ninety pounds body. Once again the thought of suicide comes up and I want to find a way to get rid of this as soon as possible....

The tears kept running down my face when I talked with my father about my decision of quiting the Chemo this evening. All this eighty years old man really hope was Chemo could save his daughter's life. It did saved his friend's life from breast cancer. That's why he keeps convincing me to hang on the Chemo.....

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