I understand exactly what you are saying. I also struggle and yet I have long been in the knowing as to what is expected of me (not because I have to but because I chose to). As I once said, it is easy to love the lovable yet difficult to love to unlovable but most certainly, that is our knowing about love even when we struggle with our own feelings. LOGL, Heavens girl
PS: Rudenski, I don't experience you as having to struggle with love, perhaps the struggle lays inside, as mine does. To love is easy yet to speak out against slavery is not popular nor is it easy. That's how I see that kind of entrapment. A Veil over this face that hinders Perfect Love and Sight.