Spiritual Being trying to be human
All of my life I always felt somehow that some benevolent being was looking out for me. My belief superceded religion but my religion seemed for the most part my way to identify the benevolent being I knew was there. Returning from my NDE, I longer felt as attached to my religion as I did to God. Religion was so full of judgement compared the awesome non-judgement of God(Yah). I still love religion in a less judgemental form though and I guess I alway will. I may have chosen religion as the way to frame my perceptions of the world and God knowing this gave me a version of heaven that matched my expectations. My realtionship with God has waxed and wained from time to time but I know that God is love. Mostly though I am in a daily dialouge with God. I can't imagine not knowing God. I imagine a lot of people think I talk to myself but I am often times in an almost constant dialouge with God. When I start dealing with fleshly impulses though, I often feel the abscence of God. The God I now know is a far cry from the God that some religions claim to worship. I go along with religion as long as it goes along with what I know to be true about God.
Being a spiritual being trying to be human...we have to agree to having an ego... and when I do have an ego, it stands out. People will judge me for a much lesser offense than others who are less spirit because they expect more from me. When I act human, it is a bad act and I run off most people because I am too weird for them. I have a difficult time maintaining friendships because all I do is talk spirit stuff all of the time. People get tired of that but when I talk flesh stuff it comes across too stong... I am struggling with what you said and I can't seem to find the right words to say what I mean. My NDE changed me in a profound way but I still put my am still in there... if i could only get rid of my ego in there or I would walk right out of this body.... am going there...but when I fail, people get very disappointed with me...they expected more from me... My weaknesses keep me here...I guess I still have stuff to learn...
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All of my life I always felt somehow that some benevolent being was looking out for me. My belief superceded religion but religion seemed for the most part to identify the benevolent being I knew was there. Returning from my NDE, I longer felt as attached to my religion as I did to God. Religion was so full of judgement compared the awesome non-judgement of God(Yah). My realtionship with God has waxed and wained from time to time but I know that god is love. That is a far cry from the God that some religions claim to worship. I go along with religion as long as it goes along with what I know to be true about God.
Being a spiritual being trying to be human...we have to agree to having an ego... and when I do have an ego, it stands out. People will judge me for a much lesser offense then others who are less spirit because they expect more from us. When I act human, it is a bad act and I run off most people because I am too weird for them. I have a difficult time maintaining friendships because all I do is talk spirit stuff all of the time. People get tired of that but when I talk flesh stuff it comes across too stong... Iam struggling with what you said and I can't seem to find the right words to say what I mean. My NDE changed me in a profound way but I am still in there... if i could only get rid of my ego, I could walk right out of this body.... am going there...but when I fail, people get very disappointed with me...they expected more from me... My weaknesses keep me here...I guess I still have stuff to learn...