My firstreaction to your post was whether I should wait to respond until you edited. You did. Then I thought perhaps I should wait until you just deleted the whole lot and issued an apology. I expect this is next.
Mother, I have no idea what you are talking about. You seem to feel that my posts are directed towards you somehow and they are not. I do not hate your username and have never invested any intention or energy or negativity towards you, only love. My mother in law was also a mother of four, and I suppose I saw her in you. I'm really completely at a loss as to what you are talking about, and how I am in any way involved in your process. I don't wish to participate in this.
Good luck with your healing and revealing. I wish you the best.