Why have you edited your post, changed the title? I liked your original post and original title.
I use edit to add but not to subtract. I don't understand why you keep pulling back your words on the forums. Your words carry energy, they have a real currency.
I have not had much time of late to post, or to read. I sense however that a lot is changing for you. I am glad your heart is open. There is no other way to proceed.
I think dreams are a choice. Or at least that is what I decided for myself. I can choose to live with whatever reality I want, at least in terms of mind space and heart space. I did this for a long time, and now the physical manifestations are catching up.