I just sit and think about how productive my life would be without this odor. I know I would be married with children and I'd probably be out of my mother's house. I can't hold a job long enough to produce a stable income 'cause I myself am unstable due to the scorn of having Body Odor . This has mucked me up pretty bad and I haven't even thought about self medicating so I'm just taking it all in. I just found out that the nephew of my brother-in law was 16 years old and shot himself in the head because he was depressed about losing some family members to death. The docs don't expect him to make it because the damage is irreparable. By the way, he was a church going boy and very active with the choir and all and yet his faith wasn't enough to sustain him. Why should I continue with a God who doesn't respond to me but will sit back and watch people commit suicide. So much for divine intervention.