> This might sound like a retarded ? but have been
> wondering this.. as a female I don't know if I have
> ever had the big o..
The question's not retarded at all
> i mean i have felt the tingling sensation on my clit,
> the pulsing feeling and what not and have had that
> feeling like omg don't touch it
If that pulsing feeling was overwhelming and your body convulsing out of control, then that's cllmax. If it was less overwhelming than that, you were just at the point of cllmax.
> but have never ejaculated.. so does that mean i never
> had an cllmax..i told my partner that i have had an
> cllmax or what i thought was one but because i didn't
> ejaculate he doesn't believe me..i don't want him to
> think think that i don't enjoy his company because I
> do...are there people who can cllmax and not ejaculate?
> just curious and thank yo for your time..
What you (and your partner) need to realise is that many women never experience an cllmax and most women don't ejaculate and can't ejaculate. cllmax is essential for males, in order for them to reproduce. It's the cllmax which physically propels the ejaculate from the prostate, down the length of the penis and into the female. On the other hand, a female can -- and most do -- readily reproduce without experiencing either ejaculation or cllmax. In fact, the more female an individual is, the less likely she is to experience cllmax or ejaculation. Both of these depend on testosterone at various stages of life. Many, but not all, women have enough testosterone to experience cllmax. In order to experience ejaculation it's necessary to have had significant exposure to high levels of teststoerone before birth and relatively high levels of testosterone in adulthood. That exposure to testosterone leads to better development of the paraurethral glands, sometimes nowadays referred to as "the female prostate". When these are stimulated (the "G" spot) they release fluid into the urethra in a comparable method to male ejaculation. However, that happens with only a very small proportion of females. Signs which can often indicate early exposure to testosterone include the ring fingers being longer than the index fingers. Signs of possible high adult levels of exposure to testosterone include hairiness, deeper voice, smaller breasts, enlarged (1"+) clitoris etc. etc.
Neither you nor your partner should be upset if you don't ejaculate. Or indeed if you don't experience full cllmax. They're both truly wonderful experiences which I enjoy enormously -- but they are more characteristic of women who have a rather masculine hormonal balance.