It seems people have began talking between themselves and forgotton about your problem.
I hope you will read the replies and have a good think about what has been said.
I think that the fact that you have been having problems may indicate that you are a decent person and do have a strong value system. It is just that you are young and impressionable and p 0 r n has been your only outlet. This is easy to understand.....we all have needs.
I think you need to acknowledge the dangers of p 0 r n, for your own mental well being(after all it is already causing you problems). Stay away from it and concentrate on forming a relationship and emotional bond with a girl. If she really likes you she will not worry about the absense of sex for a few months. For girls, kissing and cuddling is just as important. You should find things resolve.
I wonder have you been through any emotional trauma in your childhood? It could be that you have learnt through experience that the only way to get comfort(not talking about sex here)is to provide it for yourself.
If this is the case then you may want to think about professional help. THe abililty to form a relation is crucial to your future happiness.