Your problem may be quite simple. YOu are desrtoying yourself by using p 0 r n o g r a p h y. Destoying yourself on a spritual level.
Ponography is an addiction.
A chemical addiction in the same sense that alcohol and drugs are.
When you are with a girl, the situation does not supply you with a big enough fix, just as one drink is not enjoyable to an alcoholic, because they need much more to stimulate themselves.You may also be feeling guilty and or inadequit. Guilt is one of the most desrtuctive emotions. IT can lead to an abusive relation. No one wants to feel bad about themselves. so they transfer their bad feelings on to another person.......the one who is closest to them.
If you are addicted to p 0 r n, then you are posessed by the devil. This does not mean you are a bad person. IT just means you are vunerable and week. "A GROWN MAN IS BROUGHT TO HEEL BY A PEICE OF BREAD FOR THE WANT OF A WHORISH WOMAN"
I could go on about this, but I am out of time. YOu may find more helpful info about the destuctive effects of p 0 r n on the internet.