Thank you for sharing all that. I agree with the stuff Andreas said about not being able to love others sincerely until we love ourselves. The rest of what he says about
planning our lives events between lives
and all that I really have no idea if that's right or wrong. If I believed in that stuff 100% it would change me I'm sure, but I'm skeptical about it. Everything in the new age is telling people positive stuff about how our true nature is angelic, not animal, and that all our struggling is not in vain, and that when we die we go on...and people want to believe so much but all these swamis and gurus each have their own unique take on it and everyone can't be right so most of them must be wrong. That's how I look at it. It seems to me like a sea of egos vieing for follower$. It's really no different than the big religions. Lots of people are making lots of money, with books, with websites, with personal sessions...
I like Andreas, I'm glad he is here on Curezone helping people, but I can't spend money on it. I'm just being honest about my beliefs. I don't mean to dissuade you from it, whatever it takes to be happier that's what I say. I'm glad you are doing better.